My dearest lollipop,
13!
Welcome to an awkward age, where the children section no longer fits and the adult section looks too frumpy. The age when you have to pay full price. Yep!
You know, when you were still a tiny dumpling, I often wondered what kind of personality you would develop as you grew up. What kind of person you'd become? What would interest you?
I remembered when you were in 5th grade and there was a secret Santa or a gift swap event at school. You didn't tell me about this until weeks after it had happened. And I asked, "What did you give?"
You said you collected some leftover beads you could find from your jewelry making kit, added some ribbons, and put them in a plastic bag. I felt embarrassed by that gift because I didn't think it was a decent gift.
I started raising my voice and getting angry at you. Of course, you cried.
I asked, "Why did you do that? Why didn't you tell me so we can pick a decent gift?"
You simply said, "Because I didn't want to bother you."
And that answer stabbed me right in the heart. You were trying to demonstrate your independence. Instead of encouraging it, I shut it down. It crushed my heart, and I learned a valuable lesson here.
Most recently, you were working on a school project. I don't remember what exactly, but I remembered that there were parts that you struggled a bit. So I said, "You can always ask me for help, you know."
And you said, "I know. But I also want to know how far I can accomplish if I am doing this myself."
I was speechless.
Over the past 13 years, you have definitely grown into an independent, responsible person.
You have also grown into a sensitive person who can read between the lines. You have become a person who doesn't listen only with her ears, but also with her eyes and heart.
A proof? You bought me a matcha brioche after you sensed a sad tone in my text. I didn't say my feeling explicitly in that text, but you sensed it and decided to do something about it.
This is the kind of person you have become. You are resilience, brilliant, funny, sensitive, independent, and humble.
I couldn't ask for a better daughter or best friend.
Enjoy 13 my lollipop!
For you, a thousand more.
Bunda